I Just Want To Know You Better

Have you ever thought about the ways we get to know people; like, the process?  

It was never something I gave much thought to.  Getting to know people was always a very natural process for me, one I didn’t really ever have to think about.  It is easy to get to know people when you can be around them and live life with them.  Different situations show different sides of people and all of that is silently and subconsciously observed and filed away in our brain.  

This all changed for me when I began chatting with someone about a month ago.  Our communication is solely written, as he is countries away for the time being.  At first, I was so excited that our communication would be mainly written, because I feel like I express myself better in written form than in spoken form.  I guess I thought I’d have some sort of advantage or something.  But as time has gone on, I find myself rewriting and rereading and second-guessing myself.  I’m realizing just how hard it is to get to know someone, and have them get to know you, solely through letters and emails.  I’m to the point where I’m over-analyzing things and wondering if my replies really express who I am.  I have found that emotions are not very well conveyed through writing.  Or maybe I just don’t have that talent.  Or MAYBE I’m just scared to be myself, completely, for fear that I won’t be accepted?

Woah.  I think I just had an epiphany.  

Okay, well, I guess I’m going to end this post and go on a little self-discovery mission.  So there’s that.

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